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Stop Living in the Land of What If

Stop Living in the Land of What If

Last updated on: April 10, 2026 at 9:54 am by Kurt W. Bubna

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Stop Living in the Land of What If 2026-04-10T09:54:12-07:00 Kurt W. Bubna

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I thought I had a plan.

Not a vague idea. A real plan. Timelines. Decisions. Next steps all mapped out, like I finally figured out how to stay ahead of life instead of getting run over by it.

Then my body said otherwise.

What started as “we’ll take your gallbladder out” turned into something bigger. Complications. A longer surgery. Days in a hospital bed staring at a ceiling that didn’t care about my plans.

You ever notice how fast control disappears?

One minute you’re scheduling your week.

Next minute, you’re just hoping you can walk to the bathroom without help.

That’ll humble you in a hurry.

And it does something else too. It exposes a place most of us live in more than we want to admit.

The land of “what if.”

What if this never gets better?

What if I made the wrong decision?

What if I had done something differently?

What if this is the moment everything falls apart?

That place feels productive.

It feels like thinking. It feels like we’re trying to get ahead of pain by anticipating it.

We’re not.

We’re just slowly draining ourselves.

The land of “what if” is not wisdom. It’s fear wearing a thinking cap.

And I’ve spent more time there than I care to admit.

Lying in that hospital bed, I had plenty of opportunities to go there. Trust me. When your body goes sideways, and your plans collapse in real time, your mind starts looking for something to grab onto.

And “what if” is always available.

It offers you a thousand alternate realities where you could have avoided this moment. A thousand ways you could have controlled the outcome. A thousand scenarios where things turned out better.

But here’s the truth that hit me, not all at once, but in waves.

None of those scenarios are real.

They don’t help you heal.

They don’t move you forward.

They don’t change what is.

They just keep you stuck in a loop of regret, anxiety, and second-guessing.

And if you stay there long enough, it will start to shape how you see everything.

You stop living in what is.

You start living in what might have been.

And eventually, you lose the ability to be present at all.

That’s not just unhealthy. It’s unwise.

Because while you’re replaying imaginary versions of your life, the real one is still happening.

Right now.

And it needs you.

This hits especially hard in relationships.

Because if there’s any place we love to visit, the land of “what if,” it’s there, in our relationships.

What if I had said that differently?

What if I hadn’t walked away?

What if they hadn’t done that?

What if this never gets better?

What if this falls apart, too?

You can burn a lot of emotional energy living in those questions.

And none of them changes a single thing. (Please pause and reread that last line. Thank you.)

Not the past you wish you could rewrite.

Not the future you’re trying to predict.

All they do is pull you out of the only place a relationship can actually grow… the present.

That’s where healing happens.

That’s where conversations happen.

That’s where forgiveness happens.

That’s where trust gets rebuilt… slowly, awkwardly, imperfectly.

Not yesterday.

Not tomorrow.

Today.

One day at a time doesn’t sound very impressive.

It doesn’t feel strategic. It doesn’t satisfy that part of you that wants everything resolved now.

But it’s how real relationships survive.

You show up today.

You say what needs to be said today.

You listen today.

You take one honest step forward today.

And then you do it again tomorrow.

Because the truth is, you can’t fix everything that’s behind you.

And you can’t control everything that’s ahead of you.

But you can be present right now.

And that’s where God meets you.

Not in the thousand “what ifs.”

Right here.

There’s a subtle arrogance to the land of “what if” that we don’t talk about much.

It assumes that if we had just done things differently, we could have guaranteed a better outcome.

That’s a heavy load to carry. And it’s not even true.

You don’t control outcomes the way you think you do.

I don’t either.

That hospital bed made that painfully clear.

And somewhere in the middle of all that… when the noise dies down, and the illusion of control slips through your fingers… you’re left with a choice.

Trust yourself.

Or trust God.

And if I’m honest, I sometimes like trusting myself more. (At least I think I do.)

Because trusting myself means I get to stay in control.

I get to keep analyzing, adjusting, and reworking the plan until it makes sense to me.

But trusting God?

That’s different. (Here’s a link to another great article about trust.)

That means I don’t get all the answers.

It means I don’t get to map everything out.

It means I have to walk forward without seeing the whole picture.

And that’s exactly where the land of “what if” loses its grip.

Because “what if” feeds on the need to know.

Trust lives without it.

There’s a reason Proverbs 3:5-6 has stuck around for thousands of years.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart.”

Not part of it. Not the parts that make sense. Not the pieces you’ve already figured out.

All of it.

“And lean not on your own understanding.”

That line gets uncomfortable fast.

Because my understanding wants explanations. It wants clarity. It wants guarantees. It demands answers before it takes a step.

God asks for something else.

Trust.

Real trust.

The kind that says, “I don’t see it, like it, or understand it… but I’m still going to take the next step in faith.”

That kind of trust doesn’t coexist with “what if.”

It replaces it.

Because instead of asking, “What if this goes wrong?”

You start asking, “What is God asking me to do right now?”

Instead of replaying the past, you respond to the present.

Instead of trying to control the future, you take the next step in front of you.

That shift changes everything.

It doesn’t remove pain. It doesn’t answer every question. It doesn’t magically fix your circumstances.

But it grounds you.

It brings you back to reality.

Back to the moment you’re actually living in.

Back to the God who is actually with you.

Lying in that hospital bed, I didn’t have answers.

Still don’t, truthfully.

There are still things I don’t understand.

Still outcomes I would have preferred. Still moments where my mind tries to wander back into “what if.”

But I’ve seen enough to know where that road leads.

It doesn’t lead to peace.

It doesn’t lead to clarity.

It doesn’t lead to life.

It leads to exhaustion.

And I’m done living there.

Here’s what I’m learning, slowly, imperfectly, sometimes reluctantly.

You don’t need to figure out every possible outcome to move forward.

You don’t need to solve every “what if” to take the next step.

You don’t need to control your life to live it well.

You just need to trust the One who already sees the whole picture.

Because He promises something on the other side of that trust.

He will “direct your paths.”

Not might.

Not maybe.

Will.

I love this quote: “Faith is trusting in advance what will only make sense in reverse.”

That doesn’t mean the path will always be easy.

It clearly wasn’t for me.

But it will be directed.

And that’s enough.

Actually… it’s more than enough.

So, if you find yourself stuck in the land of “what if” today, replaying decisions, second-guessing everything, trying to outthink your pain…

Pause.

Take a breath.

And come back to what is.

Come back to where your feet are.

Come back to the God who hasn’t left.

You don’t have to solve your whole life today.

You don’t have to answer every question.

Just take the next step.

And trust Him with the rest.

#UnshamedSoul #RelationshipMatters #TrustGodDaily #PresentOverPerfect #FaithInTheNow

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