What if I want sex to hurt?

Last updated on: September 24, 2012 at 1:33 pm by Natasha Helfer

What if I want sex to hurt? 2012-09-24T13:33:09-05:00 Natasha Helfer

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Several times throughout your blog you have said, “Sex should not hurt!” But, my question is: What if I want it to hurt? I feel like the only way I can orgasm is if there is an element of pain involved in sexual intimacy and the rougher the better. I have several issues/questions surrounding this:

1) As a child I experienced sexual abuse that involved bondage, violence and forced orgasm — does this pain “fetish” somehow mean I liked the abuse? I can see that the two are related but have finally come to a place where I can have sex and keep it separate from old memories/stay mentally present/etc. and the need for pain seems to have evolved from self-punishment driven to truly pleasure-enhancing. Am I a freak for feeling this way?

2) How does this fit into LDS teachings about how we are supposed to treat our bodies? How does it fit into what is known about normal human sexuality? Is it morally wrong to want this? Is it unhealthy to want this (provided there is no long term damage/serious injury)?

3)My kind husband feels conflicted and uncomfortable with this and is unwilling to cause me pain but also laments my lack of orgasms.

Possible directions I see are to either have a painless, orgasmless sex life; learn how to enjoy sex without pain, but how? and what if I truly do like pain?; or somehow find a way to feel pain that doesn’t make my husband uncomfortable, but, again, how?

This is a great question so thanks for posting it! I’m going to try and start answering questions in shorter format than I normally do – so I can answer more of them – so please bear with me.

Thoughts:

When I say sex should not hurt – I’m speaking of unwanted pain which involves penile penetration into the vagina or not even able to enter the vagina. These sexual disorders can include anything from vaginismus, to vaginal dryness to having cysts along the vaginal wall, etc. Pain is a problem when it gets in the way of a woman’s arousal or ability to orgasm.
The boundaries between pain and pleasure when sexually aroused are closely intertwined – this is normal. Often, things we would consider painful when not aroused are not painful when we are aroused. This can include anything along the spectrum from nipple stimulation to BDSM (bondage, discipline, sadomasochism, masochism; also includes themes regarding dominance/submission).
Myths and discomfort around BDSM abound and it can be a touchy subject to discuss (i.e. your husband’s response which I’m sure comes from a loving place of not wanting to hurt you). BDSM play can range from light spanking to more intense pain via whip usage for example. It can also range from fantasy talk about dominant/submissive roles to actually having someone tied up to the bed post. It’s interesting to see the wide range of feedback 50 Shades of Gray has received for example – which actually includes a good description of a range of BDSM activity as well as relational dynamics that go along with it.
BDSM, correctly done, is a form of sexual play which couples can choose to engage in or not in their marriages. By correctly done I mean: consenting adults in a healthy and trusting relationship, having a “safe” word where one person can have the play stop immediately if they become uncomfortable, where correct hygiene is used, and where caution is used to not cause serious bodily harm. If any type of coercion is used or one of the spouses is participating only out of “duty” then this is not a healthy use of BDSM play and should stop immediately. The church has been pretty clear about marital sexuality being up to the couple to navigate – as long as there doesn’t involve abuse, coercion and/or behavior which would be considered sinful (consensual partners including a third party in their sexual encounters for example).
Sexual abuse has long term implications which can very much affect our sexual fantasies and arousal templates. Often, this leaves survivors of abuse confused as to the role they played in the abuse itself (“Did I like it or encourage it somehow?” is a very common question.). I want to emphasize strongly the following: whether or not you experienced orgasm during abuse, whether or not you enjoyed the attention the abuse offered, whether or not you loved the person who abused you: you are not to take one iota of responsibility for what happened to you. Not one!! And NO – you are not a freak!
A healthy, loving marriage is actually a wonderful place to continue the healing you’ve already managed. This can be done by exploring sexual play which involves comfortable levels of BDSM your husband could educate himself on. Knowing this type of play can help you, instead of harm you, might peak his interest in different options. It can also be done by exploring sexual play which does not include pain – so you don’t end up feeling “dependent” on pain for orgasm.
I would recommend some sessions with a sex therapist to help you both explore these issues at a deeper level. Good luck!

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