On Sharing Stories

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Today’s post is from Melinda Guerra, Administrative Assistant here at The Marin Foundation.

I grew up in a family whose most central value was “What happens in this house, stays in this house.”

My parents, young Christians, had broken away from their own families as teenagers, and were celebrating parenthood before either of them had lived two full decades. As the years went on, the home would grow to be full of the three headstrong girls they were raising (thankfully, none of us high schoolers at quite the same time), and headstrong independence in children brings with it situations that leave young parents grasping for control of the narrative… my parents found their stability in adherence to their decree that the home was as good as Vegas and the stories therein would not be told.

The boundary, mostly, was effective. When my sister ran away, I was terrified for her but knew I couldn’t breathe a hint of it to any adult at my church — I instead opted for “an unspoken” during prayer request times, and made up lies when people asked where she was. When my sister returned home with a police officer and a social worker and they asked what discipline in the home was like, I knew to say nothing that might possibly get my parents in trouble. When my parents were arguing and I feared greatly for their marriage, I asked vague questions of adults I trusted, about “how to help people find peace with each other.” And when family secrets I’d caught whispers of turned into a drama that bled into an announcement to the congregation of church discipline, I harbored such a bitterness in my heart toward leadership that I refused to speak freely around them at all… which, to a sixth grader, felt like a decisive punishment against them.

One could imagine how such a culture of silence and secrecy would affect a young person, and some of those guesses would probably be spot on. When I was still in elementary school, I learned to choose my words very, very carefully, opting for long silences while I picked the exact language that would be as true as possible while hiding the things that might need to be hidden. In junior high, I tried to navigate prayer and being honest with God, but I never quite trusted that the secrets revealed even there were safe; when prayer felt like a betrayal against the family code, I learned to pray silently and keep my mind free, letting God put together whichever pieces he wished. By high school, I was an expert at keeping things hidden, and known as “a good listener”…which at that age meant that I got everyone else’s drama, a gift which helped me understand that really, we were all screwed up and the fact that we were still alive and moderately healthy was a miracle.

As I was reminded recently in a conversation with a new friend, our past often helps shape not only our baggage, but also our passions: because I grew up in a family that valued secrecy above story-sharing, I now see stories as sacred, and value the creation of safe spaces for them and their owners. I believe that when we learn our own stories, open our own closets, deal with our own “residue of the past,” we free ourselves, and we invite others to do the same. And so we celebrate National Coming Out Day, and we celebrate Spirit Day, and we keep celebrating and creating spaces for stories. And really, it’s that intentionality in creating spaces for stories that is a part of why I so love The Marin Foundation and what we do here.

Much love.

Melinda Guerra

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