My Legs are Too Short

Last updated on: October 10, 2016 at 11:53 am by Calah Alexander

My Legs are Too Short 2016-10-10T11:53:50-04:00 Calah Alexander

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Last night, as I was telling my son goodnight, I lied next to him on his little bed and we looked up at his ceiling. He started saying this silly little goodnight thing we say to each other — “I love you bigger than the sky, and more than all the sand, and a thousand times as many stars”– and he suddenly stopped and asked me where heaven is, and if it’s behind the stars. I turned my face on his pillow and looked at his profile…spiky little-boy hair, big eyes. big nose, perfect little lips and chin…and I said, “I don’t know, buddy, but I know that heaven is where Jesus is.” Unsatisfied, he turned his eyes to meet mine and said, “but where is it?” Again I said, “I don’t know. No one does. We can’t get there until after we die. But if you follow Jesus, he will lead you there.”

Liam turned his eyes back toward the ceiling. I saw his chin waver a bit, and then he said, almost in a whisper, “but I can’t follow him, Mommy.” I propped myself up on one elbow and reached out to cup his cheek in my hand. “Why not, little buddy?” I asked him gently. His voice cracked as he said, “because my legs are too short.”

It sounds so cute on paper, but I didn’t feel much like laughing. I felt like crying with him. I kissed his forehead and settled my cheek against his and said, “mine are too short too, Liam. But he comes to us. He’ll come to you, buddy. He’ll never walk t0o fast for you to follow.”

The answer satisfied my 3-year-old, and he fell asleep. I lay awake for a while, though, thinking about how wise my son is, and how in 3 years he knows more about following Christ than I’ve learned in all my 29. My legs are too short too, my courage too meager, my faith too small, my heart too shriveled. Even when he matches his steps to mine I can barely keep up.

It’s been an ugly week all around, I think. Online and in real life. Sometimes it’s hard to remember that none of us have the answers, and no one’s always right. Joseph Bottum’s legs were too short this week, and so were mine. So were most of the people’s who responded to us. So were Michael Voris’s, for that matter, and most of the people who responded to him. Sometimes our legs are so short that it feels like we can’t even move them at all, that we can only sit here and wait for someone to drag us along.

But mostly we don’t drag each other. Mostly we point fingers and mock and jeer, and celebrate mourn the fall of another erstwhile “faithful” Catholic. The people who are willing to knuckle under and drag someone else are few and far between, in the rare company of the Good Samaritan and Simon of Cyrene.

God, that I could learn to be good enough to drag my fellow man. I have trouble just forcing my legs to be long enough to reach the ground, never mind having the kind of strength it would take to carry someone else.

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