God-Sized Dreams: Wanting More

Last updated on: March 12, 2013 at 11:09 am by Cynthia Schrage

God-Sized Dreams: Wanting More 2013-03-12T11:09:24-04:00 Cynthia Schrage

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I’m afraid to dream. I am.

This week’s assignment (being shared here) was:

Link-up your blog post sharing: What do you really want more of in your life? Will you dare to say it out loud? Hint: it probably means having less of something too {ex: more joy, less stress}.

So, for me, it’s pretty basic. I want more confidence that pursuing ANYTHING in the way of a future will not be constantly derailed by depression, OCD or ADHD.

Up to this point in my entire life, every single dream (Dreams? Let’s just ratchet that down to a vague idea.) I’ve ever entertained for more than a month has been yanked off the tracks by the mental illnesses I struggle with. (I’m not even getting treatment right now—not my choice–so that’s not helping.) I can’t bring myself to believe that all God wants for me is to make it through my days without killing myself. Puh-leeze…

I’m taking baby steps right now, just to fight the unrelenting numbness. It helps. This month, it’s getting out of bed every single day, without fail. (If you suffer from depression, or know anyone who does, you’ll realize how much of an accomplishment this is.) I’m helping my daughter with her homework. I’m trying to clean the house and keep up. I’m taking my prescriptions to fight the anemia and the high blood pressure.

I’m reading Holley’s book, You Are Made for a God-Sized Dream. It’s a great book—really, it is. I just have a hard time believing that I, too, can have a God-sized dream. I’ve already learned one super encouraging thing: that a God-sized dream isn’t necessarily a huge, Mother Teresa-like, documentary-movie-worthy dream you’re going to hear about on the news, or from the pulpit at church. Thank God, really, because that probably isn’t going to happen. Holley writes,

I believe everyone has God-sized dreams. It’s not about how big or small they are, because [God] creates each one to perfectly fit the size of your heart.

How hopeful is that? Pretty hopeful, if you ask me. So, I just keep plugging away. I just keep asking, “Okay, God, where are we going with this? What do You have for me? I know You have something for me, I do.”

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I feel like a fake, but I’m linking up with Holley Gerth and other ladies pursuing God-sized dreams at her blog here.

Patience, Please (graceglimmers.wordpress.com)
REVIEW: “You’re Made for a God-Sized Dream” by Holley Gerth (shouldbereading.wordpress.com)
Book Review: You’re Made for a God-Sized Dream by Holly Gerth (writingcanvas.wordpress.com)
It’s not about how big or how small… (needleprayer.wordpress.com)
What if it seems like God is saying “no” to what you want? (hopeispossible.wordpress.com)
Doing It On Your Own is NOT an Option (jessicaleejourney.wordpress.com)
Anybody Waiting on a Dream to Come True? (walls2wings.wordpress.com)
The Courage to Continue (incourageinthegap.wordpress.com)
REVIEW: “The Do What You Can Plan” by Holley Gerth (re-read) (shouldbereading.wordpress.com) Seriously, this book is what got me out of bed every day this month.

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